Pissed

Here I am - 5 weeks post-op and I still haven't lost anything since August 1st. I am beyond frustrated now, and I am depressed, feeling hopeless and wanting to stop this necessary obsessive behavior to ensure I get enough water and protein every day. It seems I live for counting ounces of water and grams of protein. I can barely function or get out of the house to do anything because I am constantly worried about eating when I think it's time to eat and taking CONSTANT sips of water that don't settle very well in my stomach.  :(

I got on the scale yesterday to see a 2 pound weight loss! I was so excited and thought that maybe, just MAYBE this blasted weight loss stall was over. Got on this morning to see 1 pound gained. I am just fit to be tied! I am now able to eat about 500-650 calories per day and I yesterday I drank almost the full 64 oz. required of me daily. How is it possible to eat that little and not lose weight? I don't get it!

I am eating high protein foods with little to no carbs and very, very low fat. WHAT IN THE HELL is wrong with my body? I know that there have been other people who have not lost weight with the VSG, but it's so rare. I can't believe I am going to be another. This is unreal. I am also still retaining water in my feet and ankles. I thought that maybe drinking more water might release that, but it doesn't seem to be making any difference yet.

I finally tried on some of my smaller clothes to try in desperation to find something positive to celebrate here and I have moved from a size 28 to a size 24, but I think that was probably done with the pre-surgery 28 pound weight loss.

I am calling my primary care provider in the morning. This whole situation is crazy and I need some help here - if only for some anti-depressants.