My pre-surgery Atkins diet has now taken me down by 16 pounds! I am already noticing a vast improvement in my Asthma ! I will see my primary care doctor in the morning for a blood pressure check and I am willing to bet that is way down too. Granted, I am taking medication for my BP, but I bet it's lower than we've seen it in months. :)
My BMI has now dropped from a whopping and deadly 52% to 49%!
That might not seem like that much to some, but it's doing a world of good for my body and health. I start the pre-op liquid diet in 11 days and I anticpate losing quite a bit more from that.
I actually shared my blog with my dearest and most trusted friends today. It's painful but cleansing too. My pride is bruised a little bit, but I really think that admitting how awful I have become is only the first stage in healing myself and fixing this mess. My clothes are starting to feel loose and I know with my surgery coming in July that I will never wear this size 26/28 again! There won't be any need to keep some of the nice things "in case" I should gain weight back. That will never happen and I will never feel this humiliation ever again about my size. Every single month will bring me closer to my goal!
There is no need for your pride to be bruised. You can hold your head high! Your friends don't see you as numbers on a scale or blood pressure cuff. Sharing your process won't take anything away from your accomplishment. If anything, we see you more clearly than you've been seeing yourself because we aren't looking through a filter of shame and embarrassment. That filter distorts who you are, making the good things nearly invisible and blowing the bad WAY out of proportion. We just see you. :-)
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